New Born Photos

So we got New Born Photos taken of Payton when she was about 10 days old. The lady, Trishana Burbank, who took some of our maternity photos took them. She and her husband came over to our house on a very cold morning and rearranged our living room and put up lighting then started clicking away. I think Trishana did an amazing job. Im so lucky that I met her and that she was able to capture two of the most special times of my life. Sad to inform you all that Trishana has moved away :( so now I can no longer use her services! Its so hard to find someone you like, connect with, and who takes good photos, so Im extra sad.
Here they are:

I know this is a lot of photos but she is just so cute i couldn't just pick a few. :) During the session I couldn't get her to fall asleep. She was wide awake and alert and her body was rigid! I tried feeding her and rocking her and she dozed a little bit but woke up after only a few pictures. It was funny while I was rocking her she was naked and wrapped in a blanket and all of a sudden there was water dripping everywhere, everyone was like, "oh my gosh shes peeing shes peeing on you!" It was so cute. She isnt the kind of baby that likes to be squished and swaddled she loves being stretched out so it was hard to get those cute newborn poses, but I still love the ones we got :)

What they dont tell you about Breast Feeding...

What I thought I knew about breast feeding:

• It was special bonding time between Mommy and Baby
• There is a few different positions to use
• Its super easy
• Its super convenient
• Its cheap
• Its hassle free

The truth about breast feeding:

• Its not really bonding the first three weeks due to the pain
• Its so painful
• Your nipples feel like they're being ripped off
• Your nipples bleed
• Your nipples scab
• Its not completely free since you buy every type of nipple cream made to help heal your nipples
• Your boobs get rock solid and painful if you dont feed or pump
• Your boobs will leak all over the place, staining your clothes
• When your milk "lets down" it is also painful
• Its awkward, especially the first few weeks, and when family/friends are around
• You will flash multiple people multiple times 
• You will punch, kick, squeeze and bite things while breast feeding to help get through the pain
• You WILL cry

Everyone said it would get better after two weeks but for me it didn't, and after three weeks of torture I almost gave up on it. This is where pumping saved my life! I started pumping every day and night and giving her the bottle so that my nipples could have a break and heal. Pumping is not pain free but at least it doesnt make your nipples bleed! After about two weeks of pumping I started breast feeding again and the first two days were awful but then it got a little bit better. My sweet little angel is now a tiny bit over two months and it is still painful. I still have to use creams and I still cringe and grind my teeth almost every time I feed her, but its not as extreme as the first month. (I dont kick my table anymore)

But Now that the pain isnt as bad, it is bonding. I LOVE it when Im feeding Princess Pay and she is looking at me and then she takes a break from drinking and smiles. Its so cute. Im so happy I didnt give up on it. I know that it is the most beneficial for her health and development. I have gone through so much for her (10months of pregnancy, over 12hrs labor, vaginal birth, breast feeding) I can honestly say that I would do anything for her, and there is proof that it is true!